Defeat after day 81

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Re: Day 11

Postby Huppim on Sat Oct 03, 2009 11:28 pm

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Re: Day 11

Postby Huppim on Sun Oct 04, 2009 5:57 am

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Re: Day 11

Postby Steve B on Mon Oct 05, 2009 11:36 pm

Good post Huppim.

What goes around does indeed come around. Society is witness to that.

The consciousness of a chlld is like a sponge, It's programmable, taking in new experience and directions and having that reinforced by similar experience - that's the learning process - how kids learn from a virtual clean slate.

This was one of the reasons why I quit porn in the summer. Like everyone else in this, I was contrubuting to a demand for a product. In my reflections, I realised the scale and reach of the channels of distribution of the 'product' had had grown out of all recognition since the early years of my first exposure and it was now within reach of the young and vulnerable. With millions of others, over the years I had fed that demand and I now felt that responsbility acutely at what had been manifest and my heart ached.

The very least I can do now is to throw some light on the harmful effects of this 'product' and show that it can be beaten and abandoned altogether.
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Re: Day 30

Postby Huppim on Thu Oct 22, 2009 1:47 pm

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Re: Day 30

Postby justaman on Fri Oct 23, 2009 11:02 pm

Hey all,

I like your goals in life. Mine would broaden to include my kids and wife's well being as well. I am new, 29, wife and 2 young children. I keep messing up and I am looking for a social network for accountability and support. This is day 1 for me.

Thanks,
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Re: Day 30

Postby Huppim on Sat Oct 24, 2009 10:24 pm

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Re: Day 30

Postby nobody2008 on Sun Oct 25, 2009 1:36 am

Planning, and sticking to a reasonable schedule is a very good idea. I feel there should also be some kind of rewards (like a treat to yourself to a movie [in a hall]).
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Re: Day 30

Postby Huppim on Wed Oct 28, 2009 12:36 am

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Re: Day 36

Postby Huppim on Thu Oct 29, 2009 1:29 pm

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Re: Defeat after day 81

Postby Huppim on Wed Dec 16, 2009 1:55 pm

Well last night after coming home from a day of running around and taking care of business I lay to sleep tired then I think I forgot to do one thing that I usually do to prevent dreamy state masturbation, that can happen in a subconscious, barely conscious state, where you are sleepy and not quite in control of yourself. I forgot to tie up my shorts, real tight so that my hand does not reach my privates while I am sleeping, which is usually what happens. I forgot to do that, I think, I do not quite remember. Sometimes I tie real tight and somehow my pajamas or shorts become untied. Another thing I do to prevent this thing from happening, well there are about three things, getting and being tired when going to bed, tying my shorts or pajamas and reading the Bible at least two hours before retiring, all of which I failed to do. The minimum is usually just tying your shorts or pajamas. You have to be careful what your last thoughts are before going to bed. The last thoughts I had where really a book I was reading about Ivanka Maria Trump daughter to Donald Trump and that is kind of what I masturbated about in my sleepy state. It was not a pornographic book in any respect it was just an autobiography/blog/opinion/advice book but it was in my dreamy state and for some reason triggered a masturbation tendency but in a subconcious state that makes me really angry and depressed because in a subconcious state it is really, really hard to control yourself. It is weird, I wonder if reading a book not even about anything provocative is enough just to trigger this if it is by a woman? The book on its cover has a great picture of Maria Trump. It is not revealing. It just shows her face and her figure. I did not even look at the picture all that much. I read a good portion of the book about an hour or an hour an a halfs worth. Perhaps, it was not her book at all. But, while masturbating her image came up. I think I just blew it. I did not have the moral courage to stop although I was indeed in a very tired, not fully concious sleepy state I usually can stop myself. The problem is that the last thoughts before going sleep is very important. This is the time I should devote to Bible study. This is the reason I failed. I WILL BE BACK ON SUNDAY MARCH 8, WHICH WILL BE DAY 82, WHEN I GET THERE. THIS WILL BREAK MY LAST RECORD WHICH IS 81. SO FAR I HAVE GONE 68 DAYS WITHOUT INCIDENT AND 81 FOR A RECORD OF 2-149.
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