Sexual, Masturbation and Porn Addiction Help Forum

Hi,
I am a new user to this site and at my ropes end. I don't really know where to start and I have no one close to me to help me work through this. I am addicted to internet porn and masturbation and have never made it past 2 weeks. I am sick of self loathing and the anger that accompanies this habit, and I realize how unfair it is to my family when I get snappy with them when it is my problem.
Can anyone guide me on where to start? Is there good counselling on line? Please help.
Thanks

Hey Thanatos (doesn't that mean "death" in Greek?). I know it's tough, but I have found some extra accountability just in using this site. I don't know if I had gone for more than two weeks (at least in recent memory) before I decided to acknowledge my problem with porn and masturbation. Now I'm on day 26, and I can't say it's easy and I can't say I don't get irritated at those around me, too. But, I take one day at a time. You gotta start somewhere. Thanatos--I guess we are all trying to put to death these bad habits we have made. It's not easy. But you're not alone.

Mitch

Thanks Mitch. I was so frusterated when I signed up yesterday on to this forum. I guess I sounded a bit pathetic, but I am sick and tired of the roller coaster. After reading about others with the same problem I am coming to the realization that there is no one time, magic, cure. I am trying to hunker down for the long haul now.
Oh ya, Thanatos does mean death, it's my gaming name so it's easy to remember.
Are you using any other help other than this forum? I need some structure to follow.

Thanatos,
Glad to here from you. I had a tough day today. I had a very busy week and today was more relaxed. I was by myself and the urge to surf for porn and masturbate was so strong. It has been almost 30 days and today showed me that I'm not that strong. I went for a run and prayed to be strong, and so far, so good. I can't really help you about the additional help. I would love to get involved in an accountability group, but I don't think I could do that because of the position that I am in for my work. I have talked to people that these groups have helped, but I can't tell you from experience. I have not really looked into the system advertised by this site. It's amazing how habits we started as young teenagers can have such a hold on us. The one thing I think that has helped me is to focus on something or someone other than myself. I don't know about you, but when I am masturbating or looking at porn, I'm absorbed with myself.

Mitch