Sexual, Masturbation and Porn Addiction Help Forum

Why did I want to give up porn?
1. I have been wasting time on it for more than 10 years now.
2. I have become quite a loner as a result.
3. The way I see women (the ones that I don't know) is twisted (look at them from a sexual view point) to some extent.
4. This is making me an animal of sorts. I am unable to control my sexual desires (by way of masturbation).
5. Have lost self esteem.
6. I feel I could have turned out better had I not been addicted to this.

Feel better now.

Feel like I am being deprived of something. I don't know if Porn is important or not but just feel like I'm missing something. It's strange I am feeling this way. Right now, I don't clearly remember the reasons why I lost porn. Or well the feeling to avoid porn is not there. It has sort of vanished. It's strange. Consciously, I know it's nothing special. That I'll get nothing out of it. But the feeling just isn't there.

Feel like watching porn right now. I am in a little tension right now. Anyway, the fact that I would have to admit here before going to watch porn is the only reason why I have not resorted to watching porn.

It's been 7 days now. Don't feel like watching porn (for now). Will continue to post before I watch porn.

Feel like watching porn right now. Have nothing to do. And it's been sometime. If it were not for this forum, I would be logging onto something else first. I don't know if I'll be able to control today. Will post in a few hours.

Did not watch porn yesterday. Don't feel like watching porn today.

Quite frankly, this is becoming quite boring. I am also trying to control my food habits and I am successful at it. But I don't know if I'll be able to keep this up. One of them will have to give. The thing is I like the concept of jogging but I sleep during the day and am awake through the night. And I am shy. So, it's hard for me to go to the gym (Never been to the gym so it seems odd to go there.) Furthermore, my girlfriend is pestering me (long distance! wants me to fly 2000 miles to meet her for a few days. But we both have very important exams in the coming months. Girls, sometimes, their emotional stuff is a pain to tolerate. She makes me feel guilty every day.)

Life can be brought under control but a lot of things need to be done daily. To control myself day in and day out is draining. I know porn and eating sweet stuff has to be given up but life, right now, is not exciting without them. Why is the right way so hard?

Feel like watching porn right now. Don't have much reasons to stop myself. Although I will try to stop myself today because if I indulge, I'll not be able to stick to my schedule.

Feel like giving in now.

Thankfully, not giving in is becoming sort of a habit. This time it was the only thing that kept me from indulging. I don't know how long will I last, I guess it's time to sit, remember and feel for a while - why I decided to abstain from it? And to think about the consequences in the future if I continue! I'll post once I have done this.

Feel like indulging right now. Might indulge.

Did not indulge :)

Did not indulge yesterday also (^_^)

Have not indulged till now.

Indulging now. Reason: it's been a long time. State of mind: Right now, I don't remember why I gave up porn. Should I remember: Doesn't seem worth the effort. Women can easily excite me right now. Saw some stuff on TV (Not porn but hints).