Am I ever going to break free?
It feels like I won't and that I'll be doing it for my whole life.
Even though I feel disgusted and angry at my self during, after and before I masturbate and watch porn. I need to stop this. We all do, its not healthy for anybody to masturbate to much. It causes sooo many problems and issues but still I keep coming back.
WHY?! why?! Why is the question I ask myself WHY>?!
What the *!@# do I have to do to get away from my addiction.
Nothing works. nothing ever works.
But, I still have hope...and I'm that if I start doing more active things with friends and being more outgoing, it will help with this and my antisocialness.
I am also going to start researching Paranormal stuff and mythology cause they both really interest me and I wanna eventually right a book about them both. So I will start to do that and see if keeping my mind busy will help
Until next time
byee
